I felt my efforts yielded no results, my kindness went unrewarded, I am a good person but didn't live a good life, I lived but felt no happiness, and even felt powerless to change anything, In what seemed like an unsolvable predicament, I find the strength to break through despair and end the futile efforts. I realized that the power that transforms ME, to stop deceiving myself and living in a relationship of pretense and internal conflict, comes not from external forces, but from the "courage to refuse to compromise" deep within my heart. The power is in ME, I learned that no one but myself to accept the unable and simply just leave the circumstance and live my own life. It is so easy, why I took so much time waste my energy and time struggling with it?

He is not willing to change his attitude to stop Myriam but rather enjoys such vanity of being admired. 

Myriam aims to hurt me through such a manipulation trick, he is so weak but loves to being admired even knew it is fake. I have told him that at the first say she became the president, her first thing is removing him as a long time VICE PRESIDENT, like forever. I can't protect him all the time, he has to face the truth. But obviously situation changed, Myriam needs him as a weapon to hurt me. And he is so easy to control since he obeys the orders from her, as her title as it is. I knew things she did, but still my weakness is he: he is such a naive in fact or pretending, whatsoever. I must think of self help to end this.

I used to think that I should always be there to help him, but it all went waste. He didn't know what he deals with, what his responsibilities are. I have done my part, and it proved useless. And I need to leave this muddy, endless manipulation, ASAP. I won't let that kills me. 

His thinking is a muddy mess because he just posts a fake statement that he has being suffering by Hue's cold attitude, so he won't let Myriam suffered. So naive, so silly: Myriam is a Narcissist and majors at sociology and psychology, she manipulates people as her skills practice. She simply acts to get what she wants. He doesn't observe the facts: she only does one thing: lip service. No real things. Myriam writes down schedules and programs but does nothing. 

Keith is not capable to be a president because he doesn't drive and speak Mandarin while Myriam only does. However, all the running business are on the meditation group: Meili, Keith and I. She now even learns that I won't take her order, and asks Fuxing to ask me to take the orders. This is what her behaviours: whatever she doesn't feel like to do, just ask Fuxing. Fuxing is another Keith. I can tell what she is doing but sadly he doesn't. 







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