Alarm

 After his behavior of against my way to deal with Myriam, in fact, in this case, it was Meili. It shone the red light as alarm! 

I take him my precious love and most important man in my life, and share with him smalls and bigs. And there are scenarios that I must tell him the ruthless facts. He appeared quietly listening to me, but I now realized that he suppressed himself to argue with me and simply kept quiet. He didn’t agree with me at all.

In his heart he thinks that I am wrong even though at times he admitted that I was right. 

The fact of his reactions to DDM’s very important persons is telling me that he just wants to get their validation desperately. He ignored my request and advice directly by silence which I mistakenly thought he agreed with me. 

I didn’t notice his response by his body language. I didn’t even listen to his weak voice of defense. 

He looked at his laptop or books instead of me while I was talking to him. That was not communication at all but I was too busy talking in English which I need to make sentences grammatical correctly. 

Is it a sign that the language barrier is the killer in our marriage life? 

He hardly verifies if he is sure understanding about what I say. Of course he might even not know what I said and just let go. Whatever it was important or not. 

This realization made me terrified. 

He behaved like betray me while he rushed to answer Meili different from mine. 

In a way I understood that he wanted prove he was right. 

But he didn’t care about me that because of him Meili would take me for a lier. 

He didn’t take the situations might come up into consideration. Three transfers could cost waiting time out of expectation. He on opposite considers that I am wrong to say more time required. I don’t know what he means good or not. But the results could or just make me look like a lier. And he still doesn’t perceive the seriousness. 

And he wonders that he didn’t have friends. And he tried very hard to make one via money. Hue was one. Annie was another. The worst is, he even paid for the mechanic while nothing was done! No wonder he was charged with unreasonable price fixing a heater issue! 

And I have told him so when he went to pay the previous owner of the furniture fee twice! It should be these receivers come to collect the cheques! Such social codes he didn’t know, instead he tried very hard to please these people like he was desperate to get something! 

These are things that he did and I constantly reminded him not to. Obviously he disagrees me totally. 

I have found that he tends to listen to words coating with sugar but against/defend the words of harshness. 

A man with such attitude can learn very little. And he is my husband. 

How I can help if he doesn’t want to learn ? 

 I can foresee more trouble and danger coming.

I have stopped his high risk investments while he didn’t bother to read the conditions of the signing agent to new financial group. He appeared not willing to. At first I thought I can bear the result but the fact is he can’t afford the risk due to the current bills as monthly payments once the risk turns out. 

What is the next one ? 

I must clarify when he is quiet without responding. What does he think about really?  What danger he could invite to? 

I need to take it seriously. 

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