Svaha

 He broke a glass cup. It was not a thing. It terrified me when I heard his groan at his door.  He had turned on the light, and I can assume he was awake already. It was late than usual when he got up and went showering. I knew him will have a busy day for work. I was afraid he was.  I need to assure myself that I am strong enough not only for him but also myself. Basically I am worried about him being ignored by people who used him as a slave. But it turned out that he probably preferred to be. And then he became a back stabber to me.  He now is packed with full schedules, and has no sense of time, still taking all DDM Meditation programs. It is all about him but he doesn’t consider his health. He took wrong way of my meal planning at home. And that  I suggested that he to pay for all dining out bills was making him to have the sense of always dining out. But sadly he took it as I cared about the restaurant bills only.  It’s hard to make him understan...

I felt my efforts yielded no results, my kindness went unrewarded, I am a good person but didn't live a good life, I lived but felt no happiness, and even felt powerless to change anything, In what seemed like an unsolvable predicament, I find the strength to break through despair and end the futile efforts. I realized that the power that transforms ME, to stop deceiving myself and living in a relationship of pretense and internal conflict, comes not from external forces, but from the "courage to refuse to compromise" deep within my heart. The power is in ME, I learned that no one but myself to accept the unable and simply just leave the circumstance and live my own life. It is so easy, why I took so much time waste my energy and time struggling with it? He is not willing to change his attitude to stop Myriam but rather enjoys such vanity of being admired.  Myriam aims to hurt me through such a manipulation trick, he is so weak but loves to being admired even knew it is f...