It is a mystery but I can figure out. 

Don’t know why but I am pretty sure what it happened. 

I found the original box of the portable mic but I didn’t ask him where it came from. Now I can picture the whole thing went. 

It must have taken place when I worked. Of course it was he told her, HuiLing. Just not sure if he asked her coming  in our home because he did know where I gathered all the tools things. He didn’t think I need to know. 

In fact he exposed me for clues. He never appeared so interested to her but this time. 

I knew he took her to the brick factory the same route we used to hike to. That was why she can’t help herself but said that the ⛺️ was still there. 

That was 2023 July, just right after I broke up with him. I certainly can perceive that something fishy. I should go through his blog to get the exact date he was trying hard to please her. 

Hue is too young for him, so all must have gone underground; especially if she was smart enough to hurt him, she just claimed that he as a meditation instructor seduced her while she was the student back the days they dated. 

Hueling is just as his age, one year older than him; which is perfect because he needs more caring from female. On top of that, I did see him playful manner while Hueling was around. In fact I saw he put her winter jacket on her but she escaped. It was definitely sign of intimate. 

Hurling is the only woman that he showed intimacy to, while it was Hue who did it to him. 

He has no sense of himself doing, of course. I was outsider’s sight therefore watched what happened there. 

What was the deal breaker ? 

He discarded a lot when moving to our home. He did not want me ask questions. But pictures someone else took kept the evidence, and I myself saw it as well. The backpack which he carried with gifts for his family  2023. That was overlapping the dates of mine and Hue, or Hueling. That was the reason why he was so late for the dates with me. The terrible dates that he didn’t even bother to make excuses. I didn’t ask him either. I have been waiting for his confessions since. 

I knew he knew the cup was from Hueling, and he was very much aware of it because he showed very interest and I even made A chocolate right away at home. They still connected each other but keep me from them, that’s all I know. 

Myriam knew all of the romantic secrets, and I fought her over her manipulation and bullying. The only revenge she could hurt me is him. Luckily he is the most useful person in DDM. She needs him to hold all the meditation programs which are the main, and the could -be only star program, meditation while no Fashi is at DDM. 

I am strong enough, and it’s ridiculous that it’s DDM needs volunteers badly, not I need it. What Myriam did, not only I knew, at least, Dale, Wenlu, Hue, HuiLing, Nancy, Fuxing and Meili knew. 

No secrets at all 

Myriam thought she can bully me, and used what I have, he. He is meek, hardly saying NO to those so called friends “, and lost his boundaries, his time is cheap. No one takes his effort counts. No one thinks he has life. He desperately needs their validation. 

 I am not. I decide.  I have learned those hypocrites. And I despise them. Learning Buddhism is not the way these hypocrites do. I will ask/question why Myriam never consulted with him and me and just signed tasks appeared on the new program lists. Our time and effort to her is just a matter of listed to the master file. Charity is not an assignment, not a work. She must respect volunteers as a basic attitude, and we are not her slave to complete her own achievements. She only serves Fashi because she needs the title, but titles are poison to destroy her mind, and also enticing these volunteers to work endlessly. 

Human beings are the slave of titles and reputations. 


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