Very annoyed with what happened recently; luckily Meg still connected with me and shared the truth of Myriam did. But both of us dared to say it out. We work for DDM as practicing volunteers, and accidentally found or rather saw what happened in this organization: Myriam as a president who only cares about her achievements and gets Fashi’s attention and praise. Everyone is her tool for her ambitions. Meg plans to gradually quit the role in DDM while I have no plans to do the same. Obviously I volunteer for my love, he needs DDM. 

It is very much hopeless but only if a new president is  elected at the end of 2026. That means we are going to no time for family but with DDM. 

Of course he is very important to DDM, but I do know he needs DDM to be recognized and honoured. Once there is a need, he has no way out. Especially now he is recognized as a teacher officially, he even has become a slave of fame. I don’t see there being any chance he can release himself from it. He has been eagerly looking for it like life long. This is totally fine with me, as long as he is happy with the situation. 

I knew I have few years left, and I would be there to support him from the beginning, and until the last day. But I can perceive there is evil in this environment. People are being brainwashed. 

I don’t think I can do anything to help, but suggest that we all can learn new things from various media and such comparisons would help people think differently. Or even start to think through. 

Have been sleepless for couple days already, struggling to taking pills or not. I need to visit the consult in person asap. I can’t live like this any longer, physically and mentally. I need to think clearly and get back to normal. 

He doesn’t really know about the evils of her, Meg and I decided that we’d better watching and keeping sober while Fashi is in fog. Even though I don’t know what next is. I must keep a clear mind and healthy. 

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