Hueling told me that she will move to downtown, that is a long decision finally made. 

It took her five months reach this conclusion. She has been through hard time that travelled around the world, and eventually realized that she should move back downtown where she works for four years. I told her that I didn't understand why she wanted to move 1.5 hrs away her job at the first place, she just said the rent was much cheaper, but I had told her that the commute cost she didn't take into consideration. In fact of course the true reason she moved to North York was to close to him. Taking the same route, at least walking together from U of T to subway, and all the way to Finch station. I don't really know what was their deal breaker, but that was a short affair. I knew that, but he simply didn't confess it. 

I think that he was just being a gentleman while she had difficulty to admit that she loves him. She has strong body shame since there is big difference of their heights. In fact he has a sense of shame too. I found that he just released from it recently after five months we move in together.

Now she is willing to pay more to save the commute time the non-sense long road to get a bed to sleep. 

Love is blind, or rather an impulse action. 

He was silly when dated Hue the snobbish and selfish young woman, the same craziness. He just won't admit it either. Which implies that he won't learn the lesson. 

Good at reading and studying doesn't mean having good sense of judgment. 

He has been used, and might have been used to being used. Women can smell his weakness two hundred meter away and take advantage of him. He simply won't admit it and change it. That is pride stop him from changing. I have no hope to help  him in this situation. 

He even won't agree that he has a prolong rebellion time though he is 51 years old. 

His tastes somewhat are not stable as his reading. He tends to read several books at the same time, I teased him one book 10 mins and six books only one hour. That is our time before retiring to bed. 

However I have been too tire to read more time with him. Being a house wife and working is rather challenge. Both time perspective and physical. The thing is SAS has reduced our hours of shifts. I need to take it seriously. Either reducing spending or getting another job.

Things are getting harder because my aging. Alas, we had a talk at breakfast and I wish he really understood the situation. 

The real thing I need to do, should end the rents with Y and the locker for those books. 

We did talk about the space arrangement. I got an idea, and since I have fewer hours of shifts, I will have time to arrange the next step before the snow season with good hopes.

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