Experiment/masks

 Felt very bad when I saw him react to my criticize the book " The good and the nice ".

He obviously considers he wants to be a saint and treat every woman the same scale of kindness, or rather the same relationship. That is a total mask that he tend to put on his face. 

It is not a real thing at all. He either is with open relationship or is not a realistic human being. I wonder how he could be after he read so many books, include fiction and non fiction, even many theories upon the feelings and thoughts. I told him very straightforward : after he has been through various relationships, he must have learned something of human being, not just lives in his own dream, or imagination. 

I told him to do an experiment : to tell his female friends that he has a wife/partner, and see if these so called female friends still spend the same time and the same attitude towards him. And vice versa. 

To make it concise and shortest result, or a cruel truth: everyone has limited time and energy, even resources, people just have their selective closed limited people around their life. 

He has a tendance that he wants to be a saint, no-self according to the Buddhism learning. In real world, there is no such things. I even want to tell him and Meili, that if they want me to believe they take the real life as an illusion, only do they transfer all their money in their banks to me. 

We  understand that it is a good theory that lift our pain and suffering off our minds, and it is true to be scientist proved. It is a kind of placebo, and works. However, when it comes up dealing with real life, work and income, and relationship, the quality of daily life, everything and everyone all become the tangible and real which we meant to cope with.  No jokes. If one  doesn't pay the mortgage, the bank can take away one's property. Simple and effective. 

He is a dreamer. Not a playboy, he thought and fought for it. Whatsoever, his thinking is not working on real life. Just doesn't. No woman, even no man can share lover with others. Not worth, and even painful if they have consciousness. I would say, true love is responsibility and exclusive. 

His so called female friends would not serve him as a husband, give him full attention and caring. They only want to exchange benefits, if possible, take his advantage only. He should have learned the lessons after Hue Pham, but obviously he still dreamt her or took her as his failure. In fact, Hue only stands for most of women, and even more calculated and cruelty. I went through her registration of the retreats, thanks god she finally decided to leave DDM alone. She as a taker got free good things from DDM, to get her good things and good meals, and all the resources she can get from DDM. I don't understand if Chan Quan fashi has no plan on her, why he tried so many times to bring her back. I didn't tell him about this, because I can't image what his reaction will be. 

I don't understand many things in DDM, this is for one, another is, if Myriam does care about too many volunteers have meals, why she just won't have more ceremonies which always bring doners back and donations as well. It is just paradox. I asked her and fashi, but they only focus on meditation programs which DDM doesn't make money at all, at times, I believe DDM pays for it. 

People only do whatever they care and want. That is the near sight but very truth. 

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