I asked him a date: a Tuesday movie night. And he took it into consideration, and replied a yes.

It appeared surprising: he came even earlier than I. It is kind of a reminder which brought us back to the last time we were at the Carlton theatre: too short time to get supper and ended at the next door burger store, and no time to eat in but take out again! 

" Friendship" told a short story that people would pay extremely cost to be not alone. Even at shameless way.

It is just an entertainment, nothing really taken into serious, but I immediately thought that if I would pay any cost to make friends, keep friends. 

It brought me a comment which an old one told me that I was very strictly standing at the justice side no matter what. And I doubted it since. I rather am an outsider to look upon what happened, and try not to involve. Suddenly he popped up at my mind : he is the one shows me this attitude toward the things took place at our surroundings. In a way it is he shows me his way to deal with the world, if there is one.

It has been three months we moved in together, and we went through certain things that I haven't even thought of. Such as we now are certain that we won't sleep on the same bed. Only in three months. 

It really broke my heart, but I told myself that I can live with it: as my vow to love him until my death when it is not very long, a short of eight years from now on. What else I can do? I want to take care of his daily life which turned out routine and repetitive. 

Maintenance is something challenges the enduring and patience. When people define success normally comes up with the same elements, not must but basically. Am I going to succeed or fail? 



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